Wednesday, September 30, 2015

The Ugly Side of Ascension Nobody Wants to Talk About - By:

Are you feeling low energy, anxious, resentful, or overwhelmed despite the “magical” full moon eclipse? I’m typing this while cuddled in bed feeling physical pain and a foggy, gloomy state of mind. If you’re feeling like this too, I want you to know you’re not alone.

AND, it doesn’t mean your positivity, spiritual practice, and wise woman power are all f*cked up either.

The massive astrological alignments and 5D ascension shifts mean we are “jumping up a level” but why doesn’t it feel good? Especially when there are so many people posting blissful elation and joy, you may be judging yourself for feeling low… I know I’m struggling with that right now.

The truth is, with so many souls waking up in the world right now, we may be feeling the weight of what we have yet to process, compounded by the confusion, frustration and chaos the newly awakened are feeling right now. Self love and radical self care are ESSENTIAL right now, especially honoring and acknowledging our needs for rest, reflection and healing. This is especially true for those of us who are committed to leadership in spirituality. Our old spiritual practices may no longer suit us or feel comforting. Right now my greatest comfort is to alternate crying, screaming, and cuddles with fluffy pillows and giving myself copious amounts of Reiki as my body and energy fields recalibrate.

Cleansing is not a glamorous process. It is not the stuff of viral videos and epic insta posts. It IS a process of deep self awareness, and accepting of the shadow side (how appropriate during a full moon eclipse time, right?!). Right now, in my shadow side, I hate meditating. Silence grates my nerves, and I don’t really want to retrain my brain or my emotions with guided hypnosis or EFT or any of my usual tools. I feel angry that after all the healing and clearing I’ve done, there is still more to clear, and I want nothing more than to just go about the business of being a normal human.

And I am PROUD to be a human. I’ve never stated that out loud and publicly before. There was stigma in it before. I wouldn’t be spiritual enough, wise enough, a good enough teacher if I didn’t want to walk my spiritual walk all the damn time.

But the truth is, to be human is truly divine! These magnificent feelings in my heart and in my body are divine. I am so vibrantly aware of them in this moment, and I am honoring each one as a precious jewel of life… Especially the ones that hurt. They are teaching me in a sensational way how to feel more deeply, how to be more aware and present in every moment, and how vividly I can experience.
I am birthing a more radiantly vibrating awareness of my physical self, that is big enough to allow more of my Soul and Spirit to live in my body. I am growing, I am expanding, and sometimes it feels like shit.

I am grateful. I am loving all of myself. I am reveling in the darkness, in the discomfort. I am expectantly awaiting the crowning moment as I burst forth renewed. And I am sharing this raw, honest experience with you in the hopes than someone else feeling stuck in the darkness can see and feel the light, the love that is expanding and growing within… So you don’t feel so alone in this ugly, uncomfortable, gloriously human part of ascension.

Because most people won’t talk about it out loud. Silence and secrets around the struggle to embody our Souls in human form only demonizes this tender birth.

Judgment of what is in the moment makes monsters out of the shadows and draws our eyes further from the Light. Embrace yourself, my love. Lay your hands tenderly on your body and love yourself in your most fragile form. Allow yourself time and space as your vibrations rise to new highta, for it may feel like an electrocution of epic proportions.

The “ugly” is merely a perception that needs love and acceptance to be seen as beautiful. Like a wrinkly newborn adjusting to a new world, we must wrap ourselves in blankets of acceptance, cuddle ourselves with adoration, and close our eyes to rest while we acclimate to the bright New Earth.

We who feel this now are the teachers by example for those who are awakening so rapidly they cannot comprehend it yet mentally. Our tenderness to the ugliness we are feeling is sensed and gives permission to the world to love and cuddle ourselves in this newness.

We are the bringers of Light, and we must embrace the dark for our Light to be fully known.

Tips for Self Care:

  1. Be with the “ugly.” Honor all feelings.
  2. Breathe. All is well.
  3. Place your hands on your body and give yourself Love.
  4. Drink hot tea and cuddle with pillows. Or puppies. Or both.
  5. Share with a trusted friend how you’re feeling. Honesty and transparency are healing.
  6. Give up the illusion of polished perfection. Life is perfect in all its forms and bringing Light into the darkness of illusion is a most glorious experience.
  7. Be brave. Ask for love. You WILL be answered.
  8. Share what you learned with others. You never know who needs to hear this right now.

Keep’s the end of the {old} world, and I feel fine.

Energy Update: “I’m Not Feeling It” - Matt Kahn 9/29/2015

Energy Update: “I’m Not Feeling It”

Before I offer an energy update evaluating the new wave of consciousness for the benefit of those who are getting to know life at a higher frequency, I would first like to address the experience of those whose super blood moon countdown to ascension left them feeling high and dry. It’s understandable to create expectations about spiritually-charged events, but there’s always a greater plan being revealed no matter what we are, or aren’t feeling. 

As I stated nearly two years ago, 9-27-15 would signify a day where one-third of the planet would be aligned in 5D consciousness. While some had already become aligned far before that day occurred, it was a date given to me by the Universe (my Guides) to ease the fears and uncertainties of those who have spent years in the trenches of endless shadow work. What was offered as an insight about the collective energies soon exchanged fears and worries for lofty expectations.

Was there a global shift in consciousness? Yes. Did everyone feel it? No. Are you required to feel differently in order to know that you are at a brand new frequency? Not at all. Just like in the path of awakening, where some experience the dissolving of ego and returning to their true nature without a mind-blowing cosmic aha or earth-shattering realization, there are those who have been shifted into higher frequencies while being totally unaware of it. 

The question remains, what blocks the recognition of this new consciousness? Primarily, it is a belief that you will know you have shifted once you feel something different. 

Although shifts in vibration can be noticed by the changing of emotional states, often going from one side of polarity to another, the awareness of subtle energies can occur no matter how you seem to feel. Just as waves are not required in order for the ocean to be seen, emotional changes are not necessary in order to notice the ever-expansive spaciousness that signify a shift in consciousness. 

If you are always anticipating the arrival of different feelings, while judging your current climate of circumstances along the way, your journey of exploration becomes tainted with expectations, which can only result in frustration, disappointment, or suffering of some kind. 

Oftentimes, as your consciousness expands, the emotional and physical bodies are the final places you may notice evidence of such a shift. Way before your evolution turns sadness into joy, transmutes fear into excitement, or exchanges pain for pleasure, there is the opportunity to notice a vast spacious emptiness within yourself – no matter how you seem to feel. Of course, if vast spacious emptiness is judged as an experience void of whatever emotion you spend your life waiting to feel, you are bound to misperceive life’s natural state, as a sensation of hopelessness, depression, or even despair. 

In accepting the fact that emotions are inevitably bound to shift, but are not the prime evidence of awakening consciousness, you release attachments to outcome – once and for all. In doing so, you end your stand-off with life, so to liberate yourself from the hardship of imagining the answer to your prayers is the one thing you don’t currently have in your life. When attached to outcome, it is easy to be attracted to those you may believe can give you what you want, only to turn on them whenever what you want doesn’t seem to be the gift they came to offer. 

Will you inevitably feel better about yourself, the world, and everyone around you throughout the awakening of consciousness? Yes. Will you feel exactly the way you’ve always wanted to feel? Yes, but only in accordance with Universal Will that provides every experience in support of your highest evolution. This means you will feel differently at exactly the moment you are meant to feel different. 

You are free to cross your fingers and beg the Universe to speed up the process, but ultimately it is going to turn your vivid spiritual adventure into a hellish journey of personal turmoil.  

Perhaps you feel uplifted since this weekend’s shifts. Or, maybe you didn’t feel anything at all, or you felt an opening, but it integrated so quickly, that it made you believe you had lost it somehow. No matter what experience you are having at the moment, the most important factor in the exploration of consciousness is not actually the right vibration, the right emotional state, or the right understanding, but bringing the right attitude along for the ride. 

When rooted in a self-defeating attitude of victimhood, it is common to think: 

“When is everything going to become what I want?”

“What do I have to do to get my way?”

“How come others get to have the experiences I want?”

“What about me?”

“Haven’t I worked hard enough?”

“If I’m not having the experiences that others are having, then it’s all a lie!”

“This isn’t fair!”

“That’s it. I want to go home.”

In victimhood, the “my way or the highway” ultimatum can get amplified if using your spiritual journey, as another means to an imaginary end. If, however, you are not trying to use energy as a way of manipulating life into a one-sided emotional adventure, you can freely explore the majestic wonder of your soul’s evolution on life’s precise terms and conditions. 

When rooted in a mature attitude of heart-centered consciousness, it is common to think: 

“This isn’t what I wanted, but I know life only conspires in my highest favor to ensure my most miraculous growth.”

“I don’t know why this is happening but I’m sure it’s here to help me.”

“It’s okay that I’m not getting my way. It’s okay that I feel like I can’t be happy until I have what I want.” 

“Maybe I’m only frustrated as a chance to love the one who is frustrated on a more unconditional level.”

“No matter how my life seems or appears, I trust in the perfection of the Divine plan that in every breath reminds me that all is well.”

“If I’m feeling the way I don’t want to be, maybe it is life’s way of helping me overcome judgments I have about certain feelings, as a way of helping me release attachments to outcome. Hey, stinky experiences – thank you for helping me.”

“It’s okay that others are having incredible experiences that I am not. They are merely foreshadowing what will soon be entering my reality as well. Thanks for the confirmation.” 

“Look at how perfectly life is showing me who I become when I don’t get my way. In this moment I deserve more love – not less.”

“Even though I want to go ‘home’, I accept I came here for a reason, and to see my journey through.”

When rooted in the right attitude, you are able to explore the infinite potential of existence with the Universe holding your hand and guiding you along. However, when you try to take control of the voyage, and insist that life makes your experience exactly what it isn’t, a deeper journey into the heart of surrender serves to dismantle all defenses until there is nothing left but the will to explore what life intends to reveal. 

Since shifts in consciousness are not determined by changes in emotional states, the most important practice to implement for the advancement of your journey is an exploration into self-love. This allows each moment of frustration, disappointment, negotiation, sarcasm, and defense to remind you of the exact moments in time when you require more kindness, gentleness, acceptance, and attention from yourself. 

Just as many imagine shifts in consciousness must be accompanied by “better” emotional experiences, there are equally those who don’t believe self-love is potent, unless they feel different than how they’ve been feeling. How can life shift you into a heightened state if you’re still judging the state you’re in as being less than by comparison? The Universe is willing to advance your journey into more exciting chapters of growth and expansion, just as soon as you release any tendency to judge your current environment of experience. 

By bringing the right attitude with you, one moment of self-love at a time, you cultivate faith in a destiny that doesn’t require you to discover the incredible realities you are unable to avoid. The fruits of your labor are inevitable, but in order to open up to the endless grace of eternal bliss, you must be willing to relinquish each expectation, hope, and desire, so your current reality can be embraced as fertile ground, where life is preparing you to receive the everything that awaits your arrival. 

Ultimately, your choices do not determine what comes to be, since each and every outcome is orchestrated by the hands of fate. Instead, your freedom of will determines the quality of your experience based on how you choose to view the circumstances at hand. This means you can have an oddly-hilarious time during unexpected moments of misfortune, depending upon how you choose to interpret the symbols of your experience. Equally so, you can have a disappointing experience during one of life’s greatest celebrations, if choosing to view life through the self-defeating lens of victimhood. 

How can I view this moment through the eyes of faith? How would love deal with this experience? What would my Highest Self do at a time like this? 

These are the essential questions that assist you in shifting into the right attitude, so the ever-evolving nature of your awakening consciousness can please you with an exploration of heart-centered joy, instead of leaving you more desperate, hungry, and lonely than before your journey began. 

Whether you are among the many who have palpably noticed a definitive shift in your reality, or are one of those who cannot recognize energetic expansions until life becomes more preferable, in either case, you are never alone for one split second of your journey. 

May the Truth, glory, beauty, and perfection of Universal Will console each hardship and wipe away each tear, whether shed as frustration or joy, to reveal the ecstasy of your highest potential in exactly the way that is perfect for you. It may not be exactly what you want, but it’s always the perfect environment to provide you with everything you need to further inspire your journey of expansion. 

Many blessings,
Matt Kahn - we look forward to being with you in-person soon! <3 ~Julie :)

Monday, September 28, 2015

Matt Kahn 9/28/2015 Energy Update

While yesterday ‘s expansion of energy acted as a “ribbon-cutting ceremony” to welcome 5D consciousness into collective awareness, today represents a marker in time, where palpable waves of unity consciousness anchor into Earth’s grid to create a new zero point for each human being. 

The degree to which each being becomes aware of this shift, whether felt today or in the days, weeks, or month’s to come occurs intentionally to provide the most essential journey of evolution for each individual. As this new zero point is anchored, the expansive energy of 5D consciousness can be noticed as life’s natural state of being, instead of felt as heightened states that come and go.

As a way of ushering in a new paradigm of spiritual renaissance, on an individual and global level, I invite you to help anchor this new energy into Mother Earth by repeating the following words at 11:11 in whatever time zone you’re in:

“I welcome the light. I enter the light. I am the light. I am the light. The light I am.” 

If inspired, feel free to repeat these words as often as you wish to assist in the expansion of the whole. 

Please forward this message along to all members of your soul family to allow our individual contributions to align and magnify a miraculous shift in consciousness for the wellbeing, transformation, awakening, and ascension of all. 

May all be blessed in your almighty presence and remember who they are as a love that has no end. 

Om shanti. Shanti Om. 

Matt Kahn

Saturday, September 26, 2015

Energy Update: Entering the 5th Dimension

Energy Update: Entering the 5th Dimension 

As we enter 5D consciousness, we have reached a new horizon of possibility, where all previous reference points cannot assist us in dissecting reality into separate categories of polarity. Instead of feeling sad while hoping to be happy, or even feeling happy, while hoping not to avoid any further sadness, we are neither sad nor happy. In the absence of sensing a high or noticing a low, we have returned to zero point, but without a defining sign of arrival. 

Perhaps for you, your entry point has left you without a sense of who you are, including the melting away of each spiritual identity or attribute that your ego spent so much time striving to embody or desperately capture. Maybe there is no sense of where you are in time and space, which can cause you to imagine how you are somewhere far behind wherever you’ve been anticipating to go. 

As your experience of emptiness acts a definitive sign that you have exited 3D reality and entered the doorway of unity consciousness, while it may seem underwhelming to some, it is a crucial stage of spiritual growth to help ground you into alignment with your highest spiritual maturity. Instead of fearing being left out or left behind some sort of window of opportunity, it is important to know the true gift that such a shift in consciousness provides. 

While many have spent the last 7 years being turned upside down, shaken to your core, and unraveled, the emptying process occurs to clear out your energy field, so you may enter this brand-new frontier of experience completely empty of any previous assumption, belief, or conclusion. It’s as if the Universe is making sure you cannot obscure your view of what is and will continue to unfold. The emptying out, in and of itself, reveals a fiercely compassionate Universe. 

It’s an omnipresent reality that will do whatever is required to empty your vessel, ensuring that you will not miss a moment of miraculous grace by having the ammunition to misperceive what will be seen as the most miraculous time in human history. 

If you are sitting back with your arms folded, waiting for a cosmic lightshow to prove itself to you, you might find yourself in a stand-off with time, battling the grace of existence with arrows of frustration, confusion, and expectation. For any being inhabiting a body, this particular lifetime is an open-ended opportunity to release the chains of victimhood and not just experience the perfection of life’s Divine plan, but to live out each moment of ascension with the joy, faith, and enthusiasm that so many are reserving to express, once something impressive happens. 

While many understand the term “reincarnation” to indicate the journey of a soul through various bodies of incarnation, I’d like to provide another term to help you remember the significance of why we are here during a time of planetary expansion. A few years ago, the Universe taught me a word called “meta-incarnation”. It refers to the quantum understanding that not only have we incarnated many times before, but to also acknowledge how this isn’t the first time each of us have lived out this exact lifetime, as the characters we view ourselves to be. 

It’s as if the ascension lifetime is one of the soul’s favorite movies in its cosmic Netflix account. When souls watch movies of lifetimes, they go along for the journey of a main character by incarnating into their world of evolution. 

The more times a soul lives out a particular incarnation, the faster they wake up within it. The objective is to be as liberated, boundless, infinite, and immortal as the soul experiences itself within the domain of heaven, while incarnated in form. The deeper a soul wakes up in form, the more the world in view transforms into higher frequencies of light. This may shed greater perspective on why some are so adamant on not wanting to come back. 
It is a deep-rooted declaration emanating from the soul, indicating that it has learned and grown from this meta-incarnation, to the point of being ready to move onto greater adventures. 

And yet, for those who feel quite done with this ever-looping scenario, I invite you to release yourself from the grip of self-imposed beliefs and declare the absolute Truth of your immortal existence, so you may complete this lifetime as the highest self you’ve always been. 

To open up the floodgates to your highest experience throughout a lifetime you’ve successfully completed so many times before, please repeat the following words:

“No matter how I think, feel, act, or perceive reality, I hereby accept that I am the ultimate reality dwelling in the hearts of all that is. I am the light through which all things come to be, as well as the aliveness of being that is already so liberated, I am choosing to experience life as this character, only for the purposes of awakening to transform reality for the well-being of all. I no longer wait for anything within or throughout my experience to change, in order to confirm the eternal truth that I AM, I have always been, and shall always be. Despite how I think, feel, or act, I am the immortal reality within it. While this body provides me an experience of being the main character within the movie of incarnation, I hereby declare the Truth of my infinite nature and command my reality to confirm this Truth to me now. I am healthy. I am happy. I am abundant. I am free. I am the light. The light I am. May all beings be uplifted, healed, and reborn by the power of my immaculate declaration. And so it is.”

I invite you to take a moment and feel the power within these words. In doing so, you enter the revolutionary part of the love revolution by no longer holding yourself hostage, while waiting for life to rescue you. Instead, you declare the absolute Truth of who you are, as the ultimate reality of all that is, and free yourself through the infinite power of your spoken word. 

When I was given the date 9-27-15, it was for the purposes of assigning a marker in time, where the purging and purifying that so many have endured would transition into a period of integration. As this date was given, it was mixed into the other interpretations of ascension to become something else to project anticipate, doubt, hope, and assumptions upon. Soon, many began to wonder if this was the date they’d be leaving the planet, or if it was a confirmation of something catastrophic. 

Others used it as opportunities to cast doubt and skepticism, when so many widely-anticipated dates in history have left many scratching their heads instead of opening their hearts. 

The truth is, both sides are actually right to a certain degree.

Is there a spiritual significance to this time in history?

Yes. It is a time when awakening individuals hold space for a spiritual evolution unfolding on a global level. 

Will something powerful happen on 9-27-15? 

Yes. The expansive energies of 5D consciousness that have already entered the atmosphere of the collective consciousness reaches a point of crescendo on 9-27-15 and integrates into the Earth the following day on 9-28-15. 

Is 9-27-15 the moment of Ascension? 

Ascension is not one moment in time, but a period of spiritual renaissance, where beings that have evolved in consciousness are catapulted into new horizons of experience. 

Will all my symptoms and problems instantly dissolve on that day? 

As always, life only takes shape and form to provide you with experiences to ensure the evolution of your soul, as you continue to complete this lifetime, but from a higher timeline of perception than any other time of meta-incarnation. 

If wishing to accelerate the storyline of incarnation, it is a matter of releasing attachment to outcome and daring to be more loving toward yourself and others. In essence, your evolution accelerates when it no longer matters what happens to you, but only how rooted in your heart you happen to be. 
For those who yearn to be rooted in their heart, but fail to act as loving, joyful, and kind as they wish to be, the willingness to relax your body and offer greater emotional support to your less desirable qualities and characteristics releases deep-rooted judgments to allow all aspects of shadow to be as worthy of receiving your light as your most admirable qualities and characteristics. 

What can I expect in 5D consciousness? 

By its very nature, your entry point into 5D reality is void of any idea, belief, or expectation collected or developed along the way. When in 3D reality, making your way through the 4th dimension and toward the 5th, there are many signs and symptoms you are taught as a way of ensuring you are making your way. Because 3D and 4D consciousness are rooted in personal will instead of Universal will, faith is given to the expectation of outcome, if without an awareness of the silent eternal force within you that guides your every move and ensures the completion of a journey you have already lived out many times before. This is also why intuition exists. It is the remembrance of what you’ve already played out so many other times that allows an inner knowing to guide you into making decisions contrary to however you lived this lifetime out before. It’s as if your higher intelligence remembers the decisions you’ve made in the past and encourages you to select more powerful and courageous options, so this adventure of incarnation can be as fresh, unique, and exciting as you’ve intended it to be. 

As you evolve in consciousness, your inner knowing replaces a tendency to cling to expectations as an imaginary form of security. In the absence of using any sort of future pending promise to ensure your safety, an awakened being finds safety in being completely open to the equality of all possibilities. 

To an awakened being – the notion of “Will I be okay?” isn’t a question or a concern. It’s just an innocent thought passing through the beauty of time and space like the uniqueness of a snowflake drifting through the air. 
For those who wish to reclaim their power from the mirage of expectation, and no longer fall victim to the dissatisfying allure of outcomes, it is essential to be as open and empty as possible. This doesn’t mean to get rid of anything or try to hold your body and mind in any particular position. 
Instead, it is merely an invitation to breathe in and out as thought, feeling, interactions, and circumstances come to be. When and if the simplicity of this way of being seems overwhelming, it is merely an opportunity to offer greater loving support to your innocence, as you adjust to being empty throughout a world of seemingly endless hunger and desires for gain. 

A mantra that can assist you in making peace with the emptying out process of entering 5D consciousness is simple but effective: 

“When in doubt – go without.” 

No matter how often your ego seems to freak out by not having a passion to pursue, a direction to forge, a battle to win, or an obstacle to overcome, you can best serve the evolution of your consciousness by making your inner and outer realities as simple as possible. This is a time to listen deeply, move softly, speak with gentleness, while greeting each moment as a precious gift of divinity, no matter how hardened, callous, sarcastic, or insensitive anyone seems to be. 

In celebration of entering 5D as empty as possible, your external reality is no longer an indication of your evolving consciousness. If anything, the way in which characters behave reflect a way of being that you have outgrown, as you forge a path in an exciting new direction that you cannot fathom, anticipate, avoid, or deny. As you enter 5D consciousness more open, vulnerable, and empty than ever before, you release judgments that resting in nothing means you are deficient or left out in some way. 

Soon, you may see that resting as nothing or no one in particular, not even settling for spiritual identities such as “witness” or “self”, allows you to make peace with the spacious aliveness of your infinite eternal being. As you become comfortable and at ease with your natural state of emptiness, which may in the beginning feel flat, desolate, hopeless, and depressing, the faster you advance into stages where joy, passion, synchronicity, abundance, wellness, love, and fulfillment return to your life. 

The more heart-centered support and authentic encouragement you offer yourself as emptying out occurs, whether you feel the love or not, invites you through the doorway of unity consciousness to discover a new frontier of reality, while rooted in the most optimal perspective of spiritual maturity. 

As 9-27-15 dawns, I invite you to welcome the dawning of 5D consciousness with the peace, simplicity, emptiness, and ease of each passing breath. 

May the disappointments of unfulfilled expectations awaken the brightness of your being, where once and for all, you can rejoice in the ecstasy of breathing -- with everything to welcome, and nothing to avoid. From one moment to the next, you will always know exactly what needs to be known, but only when it needs to be known. Not sooner, never later, but always at the perfect moment in time. 

We’ve already played out the ascension timeline so many times before, and yet, the one thing we have never done is rejoice and celebrate our eternal victory before the final act unfolds. Knowing this, may we explore the adventure of ascension as never before, and allow each step forward to be taken with a heart blown wide open to fate of life’s highest possibility. 

It’s already meant to unfold in grand perfection. The question is, are you going to hold your breath and wait, or will you join the cosmic party already in progress. 

While a 7-year cycle of healing crisis and tumultuous spiritual growth comes to an end, it ushers in a new paradigm of heart-centered consciousness for those who incarnated to play at full capacity. 

Since you are reading these words, it confirms that you are among the courageous and faithful souls who are leading humanity into the unknown only to discover the light of one dancing as the uniqueness of every heart. 

As always, it is an honor to serve the evolution of your journey, as we continue our adventure into the most exciting chapters of spiritual evolution. I rejoice in the brightness of your being that now more than ever before has the power to transform all who enter the light of your eternal presence. 

Congratulations radiant One. Welcome Home. 

Matt Kahn